By the numbers.
My entire life, I’ve been heavier-than-average. I’ve had my times of adorable chubbiness (primarily before the age of, oh, seven or eight), my times of fatness, my times of chunkiness, my times of curvaceousness. My times of picking the language that not only describes my body but perhaps more appropriately describes how I’m feeling about [...]
July 10, 2012
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Also I’m…crushing your head!
A couple weeks ago, I was overwhelmed – powerfully, physically – by the desire to hug someone, and to be hugged in return. And I craved a particular kind of hug. (Hush, you.) I wanted a fierce hug. It had nothing to do with sexual desire. It had nothing to do, even, with any specific [...]
May 10, 2012
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I Am Not Trying To Break Your Heart, Or Any Other Part Of Your Anatomy For That Matter
I’ve been 40 for all of two weeks and so far I am leaving a trail of soreness behind me. In an attempt to embrace life fully and give myself new ideas and new chances, I have been dabbling slightly in the online dating game. It still feels very artificial and odd to me, and [...]
March 20, 2012
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Tags: aging, figuring it out, grace · Posted in: Uncategorized
One for the books.
It’s October now, and when exactly did that happen? September was one hell of a month for me. I feel like I ran an emotional marathon, with perhaps a few spiritual wind-sprints thrown in for good measure. Add a few mental kettle-bells and…basically, you drive a promising metaphor into the ground. But it was intense. [...]
October 2, 2011
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Scrabbling
My maternal grandmother loved to play Scrabble. When I was a little girl and she would stay with us, she and my mother would stay up late playing Scrabble and smoking, peering intently at their little trays around the kitchen table, occasionally adding new melty burn-marks to the vinyl tablecloth. How I wanted to join [...]
January 18, 2010
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