prayer

Prayer is a dangerous thing. I began this year with a prayer, one written by Hazrat Inayat Khan. It has been answered time and time again. “Break my heart again and again until it stays open.” A year ago, I didn’t post in the wake of the election, the suicide of a close friend on […]

The alchemy of fear

May we remember. Not the images. Not the pain. Not the fear. Not the fire. Not the tears. Not the anger. Not the unknown others. Not the threats. Not the repercussions. Not, all the gods that ever were or are, NOT the endless war. Lift our hearts to that moment of blue-sky September-perfect. We were […]

What do I have to do?

Hilo, on the windward side of Hawai’i, is “the third wettest designated city in the United States” according to Wikipedia. Hilo overlooks Hilo Bay, situated between the flanks of Mauna Loa, an active volcano, and Mauna Kea, a dormant one. Two years ago, the day we visited Hilo certainly comprised the wettest day of our […]

Also I’m…crushing your head!

A couple weeks ago, I was overwhelmed – powerfully, physically – by the desire to hug someone, and to be hugged in return. And I craved a particular kind of hug. (Hush, you.) I wanted a fierce hug. It had nothing to do with sexual desire. It had nothing to do, even, with any specific […]